Donghae shall be my first post. =)
It was because of this moment, that I started on everything about super junior, about Kpop. It is a craze that I myself can’t explain. I hate to call it a craze, or a phase of my life, for I hope that this feeling is immortal. I don’t know. But I’m already unsure now. The longing is just too distant to be true.
I don’t know how much time I have spent on YouTube, going through every related video of him.
Yes, he is handsome. His deep and sparkling eyes trained on the camera are just so mesmerising. What draws me deeper is his airs. His taciturn and detached presence. It seems so familiar to me. I do that too. Finding a place for myself in a circle of strange voices and faces. It may all seem shallow, even to myself. But I don’t wish to deny this superficial feeling. Sometimes, I do think I am pathetic.
Donghae really lights up my day. He is someone whom my thoughts could go to. I watch his dances to just to find myself smiling foolishly. I don’t know if he is forever the Donghae, but I’ll always keep him in my heart. I know it’s ludicrous, and probably shameless, but that’s the least I could do.